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The Dreaded High School Reunion and the 5 Things I Discovered Preparing for Mine

By Fran Braga Meininger March 18, 2023 Lifestyle

I graduated in 1973 from a small Catholic high school. I was young for my age, ill prepared to be rubbing elbows with girls who drove Jaguars and brand new Camaros to school, had streets named after their fathers and felt little to no use for me, a country girl, from a middle class family who lived one town over, in Sonoma, a Podunk town that held none of the cache of the famous Napa Valley where the school was located.

The “save the date” card for my 50th high school reunion arrived recently, and I began to ruminate, first about going at all, which I decided I would, then about the plethora of insecurities over what to wear, what to say and how to finally fit in.

But in doing so, I’ve made some discoveries that just might ring true for those sharing this benchmark. So, I thought I’d offer them up.

Deeply Rooted Insecurity Can Last Decades

I honestly expected to be beyond this by now, that fight or flight response to the mere mention of the cool girls’ names.

It’s true, they were less than welcoming and inclusive. Their judgmental glances were not my imagination, and there’s a very good chance they were indeed laughing at me as I walked by. But that was decades ago. How can it still matter?

A brief inquiry into that stage of life confirms, our experiences in middle adolescence, ages 14 – 17, contribute prominently to our self-image. At that age, we are beginning to test our independence, develop our individuality and react to the rumblings of sexual attraction – risky and life-altering activities, fraught with perplexing social norms and complex dynamics.

It’s an exciting time, but when things don’t go right, when that cute guy asks someone else to Homecoming or when you lose the vote for the School Council, it leaves a mark. One that can be borne for a very long time.

Even if it’s deeply embedded in the recesses of our memory, and it’s been ages since we thought about it, the thought of coming face to face with those from whom we desperately and unsuccessfully sought approval can bring emotional angst rushing to the surface.

Yes, I’m a fully grown, accomplished and secure woman – most of the time. But that impressionable young girl is still in there, too, and she remembers.

Pretty Much Everyone Feels the Same Shiver of Insecurity to Some Degree

I’ve been in touch with several of my classmates and have admitted my growing trepidation, only to be reassured they are sharing the same experience.

Like me, they’ve been spending far too much time consulting the critic in the bathroom mirror, searching the internet for Cryofacials, weight loss supplements and magic undergarments to smooth out the bumps and rolls that weren’t there 50 years ago.

My guess is no one is immune to the discomfort of being held to some arbitrary standard of professional success, financial worth and the super human resistance to the decline of normal aging, real or imagined.

It’s Hard to Give Myself Credit for Turning Out Okay

After countless stern warnings that pride was not only socially unacceptable, but qualified as a sin of deadly proportion, I struggle to present myself as accomplished.

I’m proud of my strides to become a better writer and to be published regularly, but I still see myself as a fledgling, albeit teetering on the edge of the nest, poised to fly.

I’ve not launched. I do have a GoodReads page, but haven’t won the Pushcart. I have bylines, but no book deal. And frankly, a content creator feels somewhat like the second cousin to the published author. So, it’s difficult to decide how to reintroduce myself to those who will ask over their second glass of rose, “So what are you doing these days?”

How Ironic – No One Really Cares

The comforting revelation is no one cares. We’re all too jumbled up in our own experience of aging, our lost youth, and facing the reality of being five decades out of high school to be hyper critical. It’s hard to worry about someone else when you’re temporarily self-absorbed.

Old Memories and the Connection to Those Who Share Them Can Be a Lovely Way to Spend an Evening

It’s only one night. Yes, I’m nervous, but the occasion does hold the potential to be a delightful evening spent reminiscing with those for whom I hold fond memories, to see some familiar faces and share in their life story.

And best of all, to ultimately and ceremoniously close the book on a chapter written long ago but held precious for all time.

Let’s Have a Conversation:

Have you recently celebrated a high school reunion? Or is yours pending? What thoughts have gone through your mind in anticipation of the event? If you’ve already been through it, what advice can you give us?

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Suzie

I went to my 25th reunion and was looking forward to it. I was disappointed that there were those that handed out business cards to get business and my old group of friends who said “we should get together” and exchanged phone numbers. Of course, we never did. I now realize that the couple of friends that I had kept in touch with since high school were all that mattered. The ones I didn’t keep in touch with, well there’s probably a reason I didn’t. Will not attend any more reunions in the future.

Fran Braga Meininger

I remember thinking after my 30th, that we were all friends a long time ago. But now, it seemed we had very little to talk about after a few minutes.

Terri Robinson

This was perfect timing for me! I to graduated in 1973. Thank you for calming my nerves. I feel much more confident to attend in a few months.

Shay

Go in with no expectations, smile and you will smile til the end of the night!!

Fran Braga Meininger

That’s very good advice, Shay. Thanks.

Fran Braga Meininger

Oh Terri, your comment made me so happy. I’m glad you feel better. I’m trying to keep a positive outlook and plan to enjoy the opportunity for what it is.

Let’s share our experience once we’ve gone. Mine is in June.

Best Wishes,
Fran

Gayle DeRose

There is a beauty to aging – which as you say no one cares about the petty stuff as we grow wiser. There is freedom in knowing I no longer want to dye my hair, I continue to dress as I choose, most days I leave the house with a freshly washed face – 0 makeup. And nobody cares. No one has a clue about my success, my failures, they may make assumptions – seeing the laugh lines in my face and my beautiful silver hair. And that’s the fun – being underestimated is a super power. Lol!
I’m enjoying growing older – it’s an honor and a privilege that I appreciate!

Last edited 11 months ago by Gayle DeRose
Fran Braga Meininger

So beautifully put. Thank you, Gayle.

I agree wholeheartedly.
Fran

Candy B

I attended my 51st reunion bc we missed organizing the 50th. Although I have attended in the past it’s always wondering who will attend this time that I missed last time. My old boyfriend was supposed to show needless to say was nervous. Acceptance of the person you are today not yesterday. Accumulating all the experience you have behind you. What to wear another issue? Since I’ve retired I’ve taken a step out of my comfort zone and changed from conservative as I was raised to well boho hippie. Should I show up purple highlights? What would they think? Turns out no one cares. Just you. Now I see high schooler I never hanged with before. We meet every month for lunch. I’m so glad I am me and finally comfortable with who I am. Do it for your and go have fun!

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Fran Braga Meininger

Thanks for this, Candy!

Candy B

You bet!

Nancy Trevino

I went to an all girl Catholic high school too. There was only 125 in our graduating class. I graduated 47 years ago. The last reunion I went to was the 20th. I only stay in touch with my best friend. We are now living in Ecuador. I won’t be going to the 50tj.

Fran Braga Meininger

Our experience sounds very similar Nancy. There were only 109 in my class.

I’ve also stayed in touch very few of my classmates, but I still live close to where I grew up.

Your life sounds like quite the adventure! Good for you.

The Author

Fran Braga Meininger writes personal narratives about the years beyond youth, a time in a woman’s life that can be vibrant, fulfilling, and wonderful, despite – or perhaps because of – all that comes with age. She lives in northern California where she hikes, bikes and lives life in big bites. You can visit her website at https://www.theyearsbeyondyouth.com

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